I give UP!!!

So what is it about guys that they have to put up fronts and lie to people?! Why do they feel that they have to SHOW and TELL some one what they thing that they want to hear? WTF!?!?!! Its not like that at all. Why the FUK can't they just tell the F*N truth and stop trying to be ridiculous? STOP trying to be super man and seem like the fucking SAINT because your NOT! It is RIDICULOUS! I'm tired of guys and their BS and how they want to blame every thing on the girl when some times its not their fault! Grown some damn BALLS and tell a girl straight up and stop beating around the bush and leading people on cuz it is getting OLD as hell. Maybe you should take a LOOK in the MIRROR and look at the real problem! ESPICALLY when you know how hard a chick has had it and you straight up turn aournd and do the same SH*T were the hell are YOUR morales huh? Obviously you dont have any huh>? WTF GUY! I shouldn't be to the point where I give up but It seems like I failed even though Its not true but there you go ass hole you succeeded. CoNgRaDu Freakin LaTiOnS I hope you are happy because obviously I will never be.

tips

Just a fun fact for every one that I sure people DIDNT know lol........ Did u know, that TIPS actually stands for : to ensure prompt service . . . . . . interresting huh? And I find it pretty funny that people still dont tip and wonder why they get poopy service. I have been in the bartending/ waitressing for like 3 1/2 years now, I know how to ensure propmt and AWESOME service, but ill tell you what if you are an non tipper dont count on it!!!! Espically at a bar, we remember who doesnt tip and you had BETTER BELIEVE that we are not gonna waste any time on you that we dont have to. If you dont tip me and walk into my bar I'm gonna take my sweet time getting your drinks and I'll probably ignore you and help some one else first!!!! Don't get angry either and try to argue with me, remember I make your drinks and can cut you off when ever I want. . . . . And I WONT feel bad about it at all!!!!

random

It is such a nice day for a ruck march lol!! soooo excited about it and cant wait to get her done so to speak ha ha. These winds are just crazy though!!!!! Up to 29 mph. . . . hopefully we wont get blown off course... jk but for serious Im ready to put some miles on my shoes and ruck sack.. ha ha. EXCITED!!!!!

wwooorkkkkkkk

Work is such a fun place.... not really! It would be nice to take like a two month long vacation!!! Just get away from every thing, maybe go to the beach (if the weather wasnt sooo crapy) or f* it maybe another couple of states away! Maybe just a long road trip just driving and driving to get away from all the stress and b*s of every day life. Maybe its just time to get a new job ha ha. when u start cussing people out on a regular basis because they just flat off PISS U OFF, I think it might be time....... Moving on! I wold be nice to work like a regular hour day and have the nights off, or not have to work the weekends...... yea...... not happening! What about the RUDE A$$ co workers that you HAVE to put up with NOT COOL!!! espically if they always want to talk crap, start rumors, or just take stuff off your desk with out asking!! WTF!! Manners people they go a LONG way. Oh and evesdropping is ANOTHER rude thing to do in a work place.. Hmmm who does this remind you of... CAVEMAN haa haa......

exciting work day

Wow so here I am chilling at work typing typing bored bored,....... when i get a random phone call stating that some one has been shot and I need to help them, WTF RANDOM!!! ARE U SERIOUS?!? Well as soon as I hung up the phone i was running like bionic woman (i swear lol) to the gun shot victim. So once I got there he was bleeding all over the floor and all up in a trash can so I immediatley cut off the blood flow to his left hand (he got shot in between his thumb and index finger) to make sure his blood would clot properly while waiting for ems and the police. hmm waiting waiting....

Hmmmm interresting. Later on we found out that the guy tried to pull a gun on some one who wasnt having that nonesense... and needless to say the guy got shot with his own gun .. he was lucky that thats the only place he got shot at and that he didnt hit an artery or yea........ So the lesson of the day is: if you are going to pull a gun on some one you had BETTER have a GOOD grip on the gun or you might shot by your own gun! oh and dont lie to the cops about it.. not good for you!

What if?

Wonderful life huh? Lots of tests, straight paths, and curvy paths. Have you ever wondered why things work out the way they did or if you could go back would you change it? There is always that question that you ask your self, WHAT IF? What if I didn't joing the military, would I of been better off? What if I would of moved would I be in a better place? Who knows. These are things that I always ask my self, espically what if I made the wrong decision. I wish life was easier, a litle laid out, or my path to my future was illuminated just a little bit to make sure I make the right decisions. I don't want to be haunted by these what if questions my whole life! I want to stop being scared about what is going to happen, and life a less complicated life. Like I dont want to have to ask myself what if I never find some one, and am the 75 year old woman in the club pop locking it on my walker! That would be kinda cool to see though......... Enough of my nonesense ha ha I know I make good decisions, I just want them to be the right ones to a better future ha ha!